So tim and I have been together now for almost 2 years.. that we have been the best of friends... we have laughed and cried and hurt and loved together.. we have been through so much but have always loved each other in the end and nothing has ever changed that.. we started hanging out and becoming friends in November of 2008 and we had a falling out on New Years day of 2009 it was a really bad time for him and his family and I didn't make matters any better, something came over me to tell me that I need to appologize.. so I texted him because I knew he wouldn't pick up the phone or talk to me.. and I told him that I was sorry and ever since then him and I have been inseperable.. after that in June, we were still just dating and being friends and he broke his leggish.. thing.. and he told me I was the first one he called.. but as I found out.. he had broken his leg in 6 places where I made a 3 hour drive into 2.. needless to say I was speeding a little bit, he was taken to a profit hospital.. one that doesn't do charity work or anything.. cause anyone who knows me knows I dont have money for surgery type stuff.. but who does? so we went to the hospital in Tooele to be told that there was nothing they could do.. that they could wrap it up and place it and see what it would do.. but without surgery it would never ben the same, we drove back to Orem where Tim was just going to stay with his friends out there and I was going to leave to go back home in a few hours but I was going to stay a few hours to get some sleep so that I wouldn't fall asleep on the way home from Orem. I woke up about 2:30 maybe 3 am to leave and noticed my phone blinking and notice I had a few missed calls and a text or 2 saying have you left yet? because I need to get some rest and I know I wont get it here.. can I go home with you? so he went home with me and I took care of him.. my cousin accidentally landed on his leg and then we went to the University of Utah hospital where they took care of his leg and wrote everything off.. and then to my surprise thats what all started everything.. this wonderful life that we now share with our two beautiful kids and our wonderful house that we recently just moved into. after tims accident 4 months later we found out that we were pregnant with a little later we found out was going to be our little Kalvin Timothy Ian Cook.. and after we found that we were pregnant.. we got approved to build a house.. I started getting really anxious and unsteady about everything that was happening.. everything was happening so fast and so much all at once but that was nothing compared to these last few months of it all getting done. We started building the houses in December 2009 yes.. i said houses because the loan was for a mutual self help housing loan where we were to build 10 houses before we could move into ours.. needless to say I was pregnant onrey and miserable the entire time.. but we accomplished that and now have our own self built home that we moved into July 30th, 2010 and its our own home.. it is one of the greatest accomplishments of owning your own home.. then we had Kalvin on July 2, 2010 and now almost a 4 year old that is just.. a 4 year old.. that is so vibrant and on the go all the time.. I loose my mind.. its so crazy to think that a year ago where I was.. its such a great life to live when you've built it.. but there is no one that I can thank more than my father in heaven for giving us the opportunities that we have had to do this.
Lately i've been feeling a need to want to read the Book of Mormon and get in some good standing with him. maybe its because he has blessed me and my little family so much in the last year that it is only right, I've been feeling so close to him and haven't even been doing what I should be.
He has given me the most wonderful man anyone could ask for.. that makes me smile every day even if I dont want to, he has given me 2 beautiful spirits to watch over and to raise and believe me, they are beautiful
My mother has been such a great help to me in the last few months with my oldest Tristin.. with everything he does and his Tirades and what he has gone through with my parents getting divorced and having someone step in as daddy. which he does an amazing job.. but with everything he has gone through he just doesn't act like my sweet little baby anymore.. he is constantly back talking me and saying mean things to me, not that I am any better because him and I fight probably wayyyyy more than we should.. and I snap at him and he snaps back but he is the one who gets yelled at for it.. things have slowly been changing and getting a little better day by day, i've been trying to get him into things like for instance he is starting tumbling today at 1:30 and he has been going to pre-school which he just absolutely loves.. its been great to see him come out with a smile on his face and just be so excited about everything.
my little kalvin has been such a good sport with me working and things... he just makes the day that much easier.. he smiles and talks to me for hours at a time and I just so happen to be his favorite right now so I hold onto that as much as possible, he is getting stronger and stronger he can hold his own head up and he keeps reaching for everything.. including the ceiling fan.. apparently depth perception is quite off.. but he still reaches for stars I guess right? he has such an amazing spirit about him he is so happy go lucky and so observant in everything. when I had kalvin I was in such a different place in my life than I was when I had Tristin, not that I love then differently because I dont.. I love my kids so much!!! there is nothing better than a mother loves for her kids..
